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Mar. 15th, 2010 12:42 am

you're lucky you had someone when you crashed

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Feb. 28th, 2010 10:01 pm

I picture your face, at the back of my eyes.
A fire in the attic, a proof of the prize.

I'm calling your name, up into the air.
Not one of the others, could ever compare.

Wait, there is a light, there is a fire.
Illuminated attic. Fate? Or something better?
I could care less
Just stay with me awhile

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Feb. 19th, 2010 10:21 pm

its fear, its hurt, its bliss.

this is what i want.

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Jan. 3rd, 2010 03:33 am

havent updated for quite a bit, been tired from training as well as the other things happening in my life. so just a quickie now, cause i need to rest up for yet another training session.

a new year and maybe, just maybe, a new year



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Dec. 18th, 2009 05:35 am

by the time i show you the best of me when you are at your worst,

the damage is already done

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Dec. 13th, 2009 05:48 am

why do we be at our very best, only when life has given us the very worst

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Dec. 10th, 2009 02:14 pm

this isnt for myself, to wallow in self pity, but its more like to you guys who have been hurt.

Sungguh tak ku sangka kau berpaling tadah,
Setelah lamanya menjalinkan cinta,
Dalam diam-diam kau sudah berpunya,
Tanpa aku menyedari semuanya.

Aku mendoakan agar kau bahagia,
Bersama si dia insan yang kau suka,
Percintaan kita tak sampai ke mana,
Setakat di bibir saja.

Kau bina mahligai dari air mata,
Yang jatuh berderai di wajah sepiku,
Hancurnya hatiku bisa tak terkata,
Terhumban rasa diriku.

Oh aduhai ku masih ingati,
Janji manis dan saat romantis,
Kau pintaku supaya setia,
Akhirnya kau yang berubah.

Oh tuhanku tabahkan hatiku,
Temukan dengan ketenangan jiwa ini,
Dibelasah rindu,
Tetapi apa dayaku.

i love this song.

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Dec. 8th, 2009 01:21 am

yes i needed you to be around as a friend, especially after i gave you a sneak peek into what happened to me. you knew you knew i needed you. you just ignored it. found the taste of self-happiness to be much more satisfying than altruism.

i should have known, you're not different than the rest after all.

yet you know i'll accept you when you come back, one heartbreak after another.

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Dec. 7th, 2009 03:56 am


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Dec. 5th, 2009 12:48 am

Today in the evening, i went to get contact lens for syikin and myself, before supposedly going to kakak's house to spend the night with them. As i was having a relaxing smoke in front of the 7-11, a guy who was drinking beer asked me for the time. He was just sitting down with his motorised scooter and chilling the night away. He looked mid 30s, and kinda down and out. But i could tell he used to be good looking.

Before I realised, we started a conversation, about life, as it is. It started with him asking if i was working, or studying. His eyes lit up when i said i was in university. He talked about his kids, oldest now in secondary school, and how he knows from past experience that in Singapore, without education you are nothing. You cannot get a worthwhile job, you cannot earn to live a comfortable life, and females in general will never see you the way they see stable guys.

He continues that his wife of 15 years, who is beautiful, is cheating on him with a stable, richer guy, leaving their 3 kids alone at home without a mom.

And this man, he used to be a gangster. A big time one, and he told me his stories of gangster life, of gang fights and brotherhood.

And in the end, when it came to settling down with someone, its what you are and what you have with you thats what keeps the woman by your side.

I'm in university, and i hate doing exams, i dislike studying. I aimed to only have fun, and enjoy myself, maybe looking out for love. Maybe its time i reflect.

Women will come, or you can go find them. There are things that you cant look for, like your parents, like the moments of happiness you might find, unexpectedly in the present.

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